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A guide for loving yourself

Many people have periods in which they don’t love themselves. These periods can be very difficult, because love is the force that keeps us hopeful and vital. I also had periods like that in my life and these were very hard on me. I was lucky that the universe has helped me through these bad times, and that is why I decided to share my experiences on how I was able to love myself again.

First we have to understand that love in not a concept that we should be learned somehow and understood, it is only an emotion, a feeling. A very simple and straight forward emotion. We have all felt it before. It could have come from our parents, our friends or from our pets. But the most reliable source for love is actually God, or Mother Earth. So if one day you will be left alone without love, then all you have to do is ask God, or Mother Earth for love and you will receive it immediately, without any conditions or judgement. This is why I don’t believe in any religious sect that teaches that Gods’ love has conditions to it. From my experience I can tell you that it is unconditional. Try it for yourself if you don’t believe me!

So the first exercise I suggest you try, is going outside to nature, lying flat on your back on Mother Earth, opening your arms and legs to your sides and asking for Mother Earths’ and Gods’ love, so that it will fill your whole being. Enjoy!

Now, that you know what unconditional love feels like, it is your responsibility to take care of your self love, so that the feeling will always be present when you need it.

I have many beloved albums that I listen to, when I need love. One of my favorites is the Leonard Cohen live concerts. Or the Beatles, all you need is love. Bob Marley’s songs: One love, Positive vibration and Is this love are also great.

Love is an emotion that should be expressed and shared with the people around you, so that you are surrounded by the people you love, and who loves you back. When you are surrounded by people who loves you, no one can “own” your love. Try to fill your world with as many loving beings as you can: People, animals, plants and even rocks. There are no limits to how much love you can give and receive… 😉

Love should be expressed openly: If you love someone – let them know that you love them. They will be happy to know that somebody loves them, and you will enjoy giving love as well, love is endless!

There are many people how don’t love themselves, and it is futile to expect love from them. They cannot give you something that they don’t have. It is usually the case that persons who love themselves, finds other persons who love themselves too. And then they share the love they have between them and create their life out of that love.
And then there are people who have not found self-love yet, and they usually find other people who don’t love themselves yet either and together form a partnership based on the scarcity of love. Until they learn to love themselves, and the relationship ends…

So what can be done if you haven’t found love yet?

It is time to examine our family’s rules of love and ponder if they make any sense.

Reprogramming the family’s rules of love

Every family has it’s own rules for how to express love and whom it should be given to. Rules about who deserves love from the members of the family and who doesn’t. Usually every family has their own rules, so your mother’s family’s love rules will be different from your father’s family love rules. That is why I suggest you take a paper and a pen and divide the paper into two columns:

My father’s family’s love rule & My mother’s family’s love rules.

When I say rules, I mean:

What kind of person you should be, so that you will receive love from your parents?

or

What kind of man, or woman, you should be, so that you will be worthy of your partners love? Continue reading A guide for loving yourself

A story about rape

In order to understand this story, I will need to tell you about my background first. I was born in Turku, Finland, but my family moved to Israel when I was three years old. We spent our first year in Israel in a Finnish village near Jerusalem, called Yad Hashmona. After that my family moved to a kibbutz in northern Israel called Merom Golan. Kibbutz’s differ from a normal village by its communist ideology: All the members of the kibbutz work for the kibbutz and for their work, the kibbutz provides them with all their needs: free housing, food, furniture, clothes, education, etc. As children, we gathered every year in the Kibbutz’s clothes department, where each one of us was allowed to pick clothes for themselves: a couple of trousers and a couple of shirts. We also got two pairs of shoes and one pair of sandals every year. Everyone ate together in the dining hall of the kibbutz, where food was free for the members of the kibbutz and their children. Once we were thirteen, we also began working for the kibbutz for one day a week. For the rest of the week we studied in the local school.

When I was a child, the kibbutz was still based on communist ideology: All the members of the Kibbutz got equal pay, no matter what job they held. Every job was equally important for the community. And the kibbutz, took care of all the members equally. For us children, this was like paradise, if we wouldn’t take into account the negative sides of the kibbutz.

Namely, we as children, had to live and sleep in the kibbutz’s kindergarten by ourselves, and not with our parents. This was really difficult for many of us, both mentally and emotionally. We lived and slept in the kindergarten, and every evening we got to see our parents for a few hours. Later on in the evening, our parents took us back to the kindergarten, where they would help us fall asleep. After that, we were left alone in the kindergarten. Once every hour or so, an armed guard would come and do his round in the kindergarten and check that everybody was OK. (The kibbutz was located near the Syrian border, so there were armed kibbutz members guarding the gates and the places were the children slept). So as children, we had to basically raise ourselves up and solve our problems by ourselves, without adult supervision. We became independent, but, as they say in Hebrew: “scratched” children.

I started going to the kibbutz’s kindergarten when I was four years old, when I didn’t even understand Hebrew yet. I remember the first night I slept in the kindergarten: I got into a fight with a Israeli boy, after which several children attacked me. Probably the whole fight was due to a misunderstanding. I just didn’t understand what they were saying, and got into a fight. And the other kids just tried to keep us apart until we calmed down. However, to me it felt like I was being attacked, first by one child and then by the rest of them. First night without mother… ☹

My little brother was also born at that same time, and since he was a baby, he got to sleep at home with my parents, and I didn’t. This seemed really unfair to me and I always felt like I did something wrong and that’s why I was punished and thrown out from my parents’ home. It wasn’t until many years later that I realized that my parents were just too insecure and didn’t have the courage to say no to the authorities of the kibbutz. They should have told the kibbutz that their children needed time to learn the language first, and only after they have learned how to communicate in Hebrew, they can be put in a kindergarten, with the rest of the children. (Today, children no longer sleep in the kibbutz’s kindergarten. The children sleep in their parents’ home until they are 16, at which point they move into a youth center, and get their own apartments). Although sleeping in the kindergarten was difficult at first, it also had a positive side: I escaped most of my father’s violence and humiliations. But I’m going ahead of myself, we will get to that part later on in the story.

When I was six, I moved to the kibbutz’s elementary school, where I continued to grow up. Each age class had its own building, where we lived and slept, two or three children in each room. In the room, each child had a bed, a night lamp and a small cabinet, where we could keep our things.

The school house in kibbutz Merom Golan.

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Black and White – Darkness and Light

Since talking about darkness is a big taboo in spiritual peers here in Finland and there are no good articles to be found on the subject, I decided to share my own experiences on darkness and light with you. Maybe than the mist over the subject will be cleared and the taboo will be lifted…

Tarot card journeys on the Kabbalistic tree of life and confronting the devil

My first experience on the subject was when I made meditative journeys with the Tarot cards of the major arcana. I’ve read in some kabbalah book that it is possible to make meditative journeys on the tree of life using the tarot cards as your guide. So I decided to try it out myself.

   Kabbalistic tree of life with the Circle of Life Tarot cards

The tarot cards represent the spiritual journey each one of us can take during our lifetimes. Each one of us can take the journey from being a Fool to being the whole universe. When we meditate with the tarot cards, we can get acquainted with what will lay a head on our spiritual journey. According to the book I’ve read (I forgot its name), we should begin every journey on the kabbalistic tree of life, from the bottom of the tree, from the Malchut Sephira. And we most also finish each journey in that same sephira. Because the Malchut Sephira represents the physical plane, so it’s good to return to our physical bodies at the end of each meditation.

So I began doing meditative journeys on the kabbalistic tree of life, using the tarot cards.

The first journey I made was: Malchut -> Yesod -> Hod -> Malchut.

I choose the following cards for my meditative journey:

10 Wands -> XXI The World -> 9 Swords -> XIX The Sun -> 8 Cups -> XX Judgement -> 10 Pentacles.

Pentacles represent the physical realm, so I wanted to end the journey with a pentacle card. For the number cards you can choose cards from whichever suit you prefer. Each suit (Pentacles, Cups, Swords and Wands) will have a different feel to it. So, choose your cards intuitively depending on the journey you want to make.

The tarot cards I chose for my first meditative journey on the kabbalistic tree of life

During the journey, I picked the first card I have chosen, and imagined for a second that I am the hero of that card. I then moved on to the next card, and again imagined that I am the hero of that card too. And like that, I went through all the cards I have chosen until I ended back in Malchut again. With each card I got a vision or a sensation and it felt like I’m actually making a physical journey.

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How to resurrect yourself

Now that humanity has moved from the third dimension to the fifth and has activated its crystal consciousness , it is now possible to resurrect yourself and move the focus of your consciousness to the “promised land”.
My personal resurrection process has begun once I understood that there is no need to save anyone any more. God has already saved everyone and Mother earth is doing fine too!

Well, actually there was only one person I had to save – me.

So I asked the inner Creator to save me and then permitted him to do so. I laid down on my sofa and felt the spirit of God entering me and becoming me from the inside and then from the outside as well. I than heard the inner Creator’s thought in my head: Arje, I have already saved you many life times ago. Or to be more accurate, you were always within me. Even when you are here in the flesh, you are still within me and I’m within you. All you have to do is remember – and you will see that I have never left you, not even for one second. Not even when you were alone and afraid. I have never left you and never will leave you, for we are one and always will be one. I never leave my children.
So I asked the Creator: and what now? What will I do now, that I’ve been saved? I have dedicated my life to saving others and now that there is no need to save anyone, what will I do?
Again I heard the thought of the Creator: If someone needs help, then you help him for a while, but there is no need to save him. That is my responsibility, not yours. Relax.

That was the first lesson of my resurrection process: I learned that there is no one to save and that everything is all under control, under God’s control. Continue reading How to resurrect yourself

Unifying the inner archetypes of Leumria and Atlantis

As you probably know, once there were two mighty cultures on this planet called Lemuria and Atlantis. Generally speaking, Lemuria was more feminine and Atlantis was more masculine. Both cultures were very advanced, and both thought they were more “right”, then the other one.
Right and wrong is, off course, a matter of point of view. If you are a Lemurian then your way seems to be the right way. If you are an Atlantian then your point of view is the right one of course… 🙂

Because both cultures deemed themselves to be right, they inevitably went into war, on who was more “right” then the other.
As we all know, both cultures were wrong and they both lost:
Atlantis won the war and destroyed Lemuria (I was there and seen the destruction). But once Lemuria sank, the balance of the Earth was lost and as a result Atlantis sank too (I watched that too from the deck of a ship).

So in a way both of the cultures lost the war, because they went into war in the first…

Although Atlantis sank, their methods and ways of thinking are the ones who control the Earth today. If you live in the western society you only need to look around you: this is Atlantis. The masculine Atlantian energy is the one controlling the planet at the moment.

When one energy controls the other – an imbalance occurs. Since all life naturally tends to return to equality, this is the process we are witnessing in the last few centuries:
The feminine energies are becoming stronger so as to balance the controlling masculine energies.
In a way, the Lemurian feminine way of thinking is raising too, so as to balance the Atlantian way of thinking.

Balancing yourself through the heart

As you all probably know, life is always fluctuating between two polarities, until a balance is achieved.

A graph showing how the cultures Atlantis and Lemuria are slowing balancing themselves out.

We also fluctuate between light and darkness, while trying to maintain a balance between the two.
This is what is happening on the Earth today: We are entering a period where the female energies will be more dominant for a while (see the red dot on the graph). In the far future, the energies of the Earth will again fluctuate to the masculine side; Then to the feminine side; then to the masculine, etc. Until a balance will be reached between the two energies.

Because of this shift in polarities between feminine and masculine energies, all the old buried wounds, of the war between Lemuria and Atlantis, are raising again.
This shift in polarities is also placing each one of us in an unbalanced state as well. In a way: the inner Lemurian is raising and the inner Atlantian is resisting this inner change.

How can we face this inner change and still remain balanced?
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